paradisefears:

to believe in.

“it’s not like i’m lonely.”

“i know,” jason said.

“because i’m definitely not.”

“i know,” jason said.

“it’s just that these people are all so…so empty. you know? like i feel like they barely even exist. their skin is just atoms reflecting light, if you actually tried to touch them, you’d just go right through. they’re all surface. everyone here.”

“i know,” jason said.

“you always know.”

“i know,” jason said.

after three trains, two buses, & one massive headache, she stumbled back into her apartment. dropping all that she carried, she felt her way to the bathroom, flipped on the light, & nearly had a heart attack.

“jesus!”

“i’m sorry,” cindy said.

she took a moment to catch her breath. “it’s fine, i just wish you wouldn’t stand right behind me in the mirror like that. do you have any idea what that’s like for me?”

“i’m sorry,” cindy said.

“no, no, don’t be. i shouldn’t be getting mad at you. i’m just in a bad mood. today was…well, it was awful. again. i don’t think anybody there appreciates me, or understands me, or feels any sort of sympathy for anything at all, really. i can always hear them talking, criticizing everything, reducing people to what they wear or where they eat lunch. it’s like they don’t feel anything at all.”

“i’m sorry,” cindy said.

“it’s alright. that’s not your fault. what i really need is a drink.”

cindy smiled.

“can i get you anything to drink?” the waitress asked.

“yeah, i guess can we get a couple coffees?”

“is there someone else coming?” the waitress asked.

“nope, just us.”

“right…alright, well i’ll grab you a couple waters then,” & she floated away.

“i think the problem is that nobody likes to talk about ideas. all anybody listens to is bullshit. they just care about what they’re told to care about by people who want them to be quiet & stupid. & nobody wants to reach & nobody wants to think & so nobody talks about ideas. so i’ve got no one to talk to. except you, of course.”

“i know,” jason said.

“like, look around this place. i bet half of these people are checking twitter, trying to find some vapid & pointless thing that kim kardashian said to get pissed off about. & the other half are checking instragram, trying to decide if they should like their own picture so they can trick themselves into feeling more self-important.”

“i know,” jason said.

“at least video games, there’s some engagement. you’re actively doing something, rather than just being passively projected onto. there’s skill & effort & life involved.”

“i know,” jason said.

he stood up. “fuck this place. let’s go do something.”

“see, this is what i’m talking about,” she said, holding up the magazine between sips of a cheap strawberry-sugar-alcohol. “look at what kim kardashian said. it’s emotionless. & that’s fine, she’s allowed to say whatever she wants, but this is where the women at work are getting their sense of right & wrong. they have some false sense of entitlement from being on the inside & so they shun everything that’s on the outside, & it makes them completely emotionless. no one feels anymore. except you, of course.”

“i’m sorry,” cindy said & she took a shot.

“i know you are, but you’re not a part of the problem,” she said, & she took a shot.

“i’m sorry,” cindy said.

“god, stop saying that! sometimes when i talk to you, it honestly feels like you’re not even there. like i’m just talking to myself. or worse, like i’m just talking to a mirror,” & she took a shot.

“i’m sorry,” cindy said, & she took a shot.

“it’s whatever. let’s go do something.”

& cindy said nothing, she just left.

“i guess i just feel sometimes like maybe i’m the one that’s not here. like i’m the part that’s fake,  & they’re all real, & that’s why they can see each other but they can’t see me,” & he took an enormous swing.

“i know,” jason said.

“i know that you know! say something that means something, don’t just repeat yourself like that! god, it’s like you’re my fucking echo,” & a swing & a miss.

& jason said nothing, he just left.

she followed cindy to the end of the trail & beyond.

“cindy, don’t be like this. you don’t have to be so dramatic! don’t run into that—” she yelled, but it was too late.

“i’m sorry,” cindy said.

he followed jason across the entire field & beyond.

“jason, turn around. quit being ridiculous, i can barely see you anymore! you’re not going to be able to—” he shouted, but it was too late.

“i know,” jason said.

he sent himself flying off the dock & didn’t even have time to look down.

she crashed into the water & it knocked the air out of her lungs.

as he came up for air, he left what he carried beneath the surface.

as she came up for air, they collided.

they frantically scrambled to find what they were looking for,

but all they could find was each other.

“i’m sorry,” she said.

“i know,” he said.

POZ Playlist: Paradise Fears

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Paradise Fears were kind enough to put together a Playlist for us in support of the large headliner they’re currently out on. Check out the PropertyOfZack Playlist from each member of the band below!

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afire love - ed sheeran. in my opinion, the best on his new album, i feel like occasionally he just pairs the right words with the right melody & the right vibe, & it just creates this amazingly connective message. it’s a hell of a story, told the way that only ed sheeran really can.
weekend - priory.
 it’s a fucking jam, an anthem for the working class who know what life is really about. i just want to chant it with hundreds of people.
your ex-lover is dead - stars.
 somewhere deep inside me, born - Sam
broken heart - dr. dog.
 this song is epic. it has all my favorite elements of a good song: catchy melodies, solid guitar riffs, lots of colorful moments where every instrument in the song is featured at one moment and very very well written.
little motel - modest mouse
 this song is my favorite song of all time. It instantly draws you in with subtle synths and guitar riffs and from there on is a roller coaster of emotion. It rocks when it needs to rock and calms down so you can hear the intensities of the lyrics.
total life forever - foals.
 foals is my favorite band for sure and this song is why that is. it’s an upbeat indie song that just sounds funky. Every instrument is playing a different riff but it oddly fits perfectly. The lyrics are perfect as well. - Marcus

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itssistersocietea:

We kinda just like making you swoon 

itssistersocietea:

We kinda just like making you swoon 

Finally, here is my new hair! ❤ #erincantmakeupcaptions

Finally, here is my new hair! ❤ #erincantmakeupcaptions

wonderfulsenses:

everything you love is here

wonderfulsenses:

everything you love is here

wilwheaton:

mjolnirismypenis:

imnothavinit:

Notice something in common in these photos?

It’s not what you think

I gave it away in the third pic

That’s right! None of these cops are wearing badges or name tags! I wonder why… seems like it’d be important to wear those, since it’s even illegal not to in other states…

This is actually illegal in all states. A police officer must be marked as such with name and badge at all times unless their jurisdiction states otherwise (such as an undercover officer), and even when not wearing a badge, the officer must have the badge accessible at all times and must show the badge in order to make an arrest. Name tags are not required as long as a badge is available because the badge has the officer number on it.

This has really been bothering me. The police in Ferguson are breaking the law by concealing their identities. Everyone knows this, it’s been going on for ten days, and it appears that nobody is doing anything about it.

The police are clearly and systematically violating the first amendment rights of the press, and they are getting away with it. This has been happening for days, and nobody appears to be doing anything about it.

A police officer pointed a rifle at a journalist and told him to fuck off *while he was being filmed, so he’s easily identifiable by his superiors*, and that police officer still has a job.

I know that not all cops are bad (or even most cops), but there are clearly bad cops in Ferguson, and they’re acting with complete impunity. I don’t understand why those cops aren’t being taken off the scene, and why a higher (possibly federal) authority isn’t coming in to address these things.

breakfastburritoe:

i like tall guys bc theyre closer to jesus

itsgayerinenochian:

satans-ghost:

Do you ever get like super vulnerable late at night that you just want to spill your heart out and say how you feel because you’ve been holding it in for so long and you just need some ventilation and there’s just something about two in the morning that makes me lose my filter and say the things I would never have the guts to say when the sun is up.

the nights were mainly made for saying things that you can’t say tomorrow day

I am weird, you are weird. Everyone in this world is weird. One day two people come together in mutual weirdness and fall in love.
Dr. Seuss (via feellng)

foxmouth:

Landscapes, 2014 | by Anthony Samaniego
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grahamcrackaddict:

0ffic3cha1r:

petah-l:

luckybambina:

aboywhowantedtobegod:

sp0tlessmiind:

dtothev:

veganbaby:

jellybeanjeunet:

sleezysays:


NASA recently released imagery showing the deforestation of America  …in just 34 years.

We are killing the Earth

Forever reblog.

Oh wow

Damn dawg

this makes me want to cry

i dont normally reblog this kinna stuff but…c’mon

Guys we need to get our shit together

i want to cry :(

Guys all they did was enlarge North America shut the fuck up

No America is brown when it used to be green MARI GET SOME GLASSES

But it’s fucking taking up the whole world with its abundant size

0ffic3cha1r:

grahamcrackaddict:

0ffic3cha1r:

petah-l:

luckybambina:

aboywhowantedtobegod:

sp0tlessmiind:

dtothev:

veganbaby:

jellybeanjeunet:

sleezysays:

NASA recently released imagery showing the deforestation of America  …in just 34 years.

We are killing the Earth

Forever reblog.

Oh wow

Damn dawg

this makes me want to cry

i dont normally reblog this kinna stuff but…c’mon

Guys we need to get our shit together

i want to cry :(

Guys all they did was enlarge North America shut the fuck up

No America is brown when it used to be green MARI GET SOME GLASSES

But it’s fucking taking up the whole world with its abundant size